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This weekend was so amazing...obviously because doug was here. We had a good time together lol...it made me realize how much i missed him. i just feel amazing whenever hes around. Seeing him everyday would make me the happiest person in the whole world...but thats not gonna happen : / Yea so the airport was reallly sad n everybody was looking at me when i was crying n like running to my car...and then the man at the toll thing in the parking lot was like "are you alrite miss" and i just kinda pulled away...then i almost got in an accident on the way home...rough day. yeahhh so anyway im kinda tired im gonna go
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[27 May 2004|06:46am] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAIT!
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[24 May 2004|05:02pm] |
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wow its been a while since i wrote in this thing...sry lol
so yeahh this weekend was very exciting...it was junior banquet but more importantly my birthday...wooo. Yea so my day was spent runnin errands, setting up for the dance, and getting my hair done. Once the banquet actually started it was alot of fun. Afterwards our limo got fucked up n we didnt ahve a ride to the city so we ended up staying at my house the whole nite which we think actually turned out better because we chilled with my brother n his friends who r probably funier then any comedian haha...yeahh so we had a good time jenn n chris both fell...that was quality. I did buckets for the first time that was pretty fuckin awesome...me n dave r gonna make our own as soon as he gets the balls to steal the bucket from the physics classroom haha...and then jon n chris went for more beer n came back a half hour later cuz they decided to go to a bar first...and thenn we stayed up till almost sunrise...dave stepped in dog shit n got it all over the tent and adena's cover cuz he apparently sleeps in his shoes for some weird reason...the next morning ew went to the beach...that was fun...me n jenn went in the water for a while even tho it was soooo colddd...we r so cool. After that we went to caits for a BBQ...overall it was a great weekend....thanks to all my amazing friends for making my bday so awesome....i love you guysssss
im gonna post up my pics soon here...
http://www.imagestation.com/members/iMaGiNe0522
username-imagine0522 password-mypics
peacee
<3, jess
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it was sooo hot out today...but then it rained...good times in the rain hehe...anywayy cait passed her road test woooooo...that was exciting...congrats girl!
my family is pissin me off today...there is so much shit goin on n my parents r letting people walk all over them. i think its sad when the kid has to yell at her parents to stand up for themselves...yehh so its official that my aunt n uncle n laurel r moving to myrtle beach...thats upsetting...im gonna miss them alottt..we have like no family here anymore after they leave so all the holidays r just the four of us...god thats depressing...
yeah so junior banquet is comin up...ehh not that excited buttttt i am excited for my birthday wooo....and yeahh i got a car n im pickin it up on saturday that exciting too. i cant go to spotlight wat a let down man...work is so annoying...no one ever switches days for shit...whatev ill jus remember it when they need off lol...mwahahaha
k so yeah this week is goin pretty fast....thats always good...i dont think i have anythign else to write...o wait! there r little baby ducks in the courtyard n they r soooo cute i spent the whole math double period watching them walk around...i want one.
k now im done...peace
<3, jess
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAD-LEE!!!
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[30 Apr 2004|06:12pm] |
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wowww my parents r bitches...they wont let me drive with my juniors cuz im a bitch n dnt deserve it...and they r bitchin to me about schooooool n i cnt deal....yeahhh so SAT II tomorrow in math...not lookin forward to that....then allllllll my tests are next week...its gonna be hellllllllllll.... : /...yeah but after that its gonna be amazing cuz school it like practically overrrr and then i have so much to look forward to coming up...yay
i was in a bad mood the other day but then someone put me in a gooooood mood rite b4 bed so then i had the best dream lol i dnt even remember really wat happened all i no is that i woke up in a really good mooood...i love when that happens. yeahh anyway u no who u are and thanks cuz hearin u say all that shit made me the happiest person everrr
yeahhhhh....im out cub scout
<3, jess
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today was a great day...cuz i passed my road test...yeyy
the rest of the day was just great cuz i was in such a good mood....even tho i was a lil upset i didnt get to spend any time with my kiddies cuz of the fucked up bell schedule today...o well...yeah so after school i had a meeting at big bad granny's yea i got my job back...i dnt no if im happy or not about it but w/e i need money...i cant wait to go car shopingg i think im goin this weekend...wooo...haha ummm yeah so caitlin stole my soulmate but w/e ill get over it...n i decided im totaly jealous n wanna go to pine lake too...and then maybe i can steal ur soul mate mwa ha ha ha...lol alrite...im bored im gonna go ttyl
<3, jess
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVE-O!!!!!
love ya!!!
[sry im a day late!]
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HaPpY 4.20 BiTcHeS!!!
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im sooo tired...i dont get alot of sleep at all lately...but its all my fault cuz i stay up all nite watching tv...it sucks cuz all the good shows r on so late. i just got home from the dentist...i dnt like those people they r evil. i got a jr banquet dress its pink n long...two things i said i would never have my jr banquet dress be. o welllll....if u wanna see it there is a pic on my pic website....http://www.imagestation.com/members/iMaGiNe0522...it only takes 2 seconds to join lol but if ur lazy u can just use my name [imagine0522...password-mypics] yeaa so the dead are playin alot this summer...should be a good time...already got ticket to one show with my brother...im still pissed off that i cant go to bonoroo tho...im DEFINATELY goin next year without a doubt! i feel like i need to see phish again soon...they are sooo amazing live...i highly reccommend that everyone sees them once in their life even if ur not crazy about the music...and it does make it alot better if ur high off your ass...but u no whatever u like...i gotta go to some kind of concert soon im goin crazy...anyyywayyy...school is so annoying lately n it sognna get even more annoying i got the ap test, 2 ib tests, n 2 SAT IIs....all in a matter of like 2 weeks....gonna be rough....but then school is liek over...well for me at least cuz i have no reason to care after all that shit is done. alrite im done i need a nap or something...
<3, jess
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ugh i just got back from the orthodontist...that fuckin asshole still doesnt belive that i wear my rubberbands but i really have been adn one of the nurse people sees me every now n then cuz her kid goes to the nursery schoool i go to everyday and she was like "yeah she wears them i see her like everyday" and my mom was liek "SHE WEARS THEM!" and i was liek "TAKE OFF THESE BRACES" and he was liek whats the rush now n i was like umm wait let me think...IVE HAD THEM ON FOR 5 YEARSSS....thats a good protion of my life if you think about it lol...and then i explained how my senior pictures are in may (ok i lied a lil bit shh) and how i needed them off and he said if i wear the rubberbacnds now then the next appt well make a date to take them off...thank goddd...haha it was funny tho i had the whole office on my side..woo...that bastards goin down...
o yeah i must say how fuckin amazinggggggg the oc was last nite...all i have to say is that i cried for liek the whole hour straight...god i love that show...i think my obsession is getting out of hand. o wellll
alrite now that i got that out of my system....i want a fire pit type thing in my backyard...i dnt no if fire pit is the rite term for is but basically i want like a fire with wood n shit n then around it i want like logs to sit on...but a mix of logs and chairs cuz i feel like the logs mite not be that comfortable. o man if i do my backyard wil be off the hizzle fo shizzle...god im a loser lol...anyway if u no anything about this type of stuff n wanna help me build it then let me know haha. im pumped!
i need a junior banquet dress...that mite be a good thing to have. hopefully my mom will take me to roosevelt field this weekend but now im second thinking this dress cuz like everyone has the same one now...even though i wanted this one since like forever...grr...ill shop around i guess...mite be fun hehe.
Ummmm wat else wat else...im mad at mr cicione he moved me from ava n adenas group today and then wouldnt give me his fordham pen...wat a loser.
funny shit went down in spanish today...but i dnt wanna embarass anyone so ill just leave it at that...but o man that was reallly funnnny hahhaaha
We had an annoucement about how our "middriffs" cant show...and then i got yelled at like 3 times in the halls to pull down my shirt meanwhile like a centimeter of my like hip...is that even considered your midrif?...was showing. me outta all people and there are such sluts walking around lol. then i went to quiznos with jay that was greattt stuff...then we went to this park that i never knew existed and it was pretty there are campgrounds n picnic areas and barbeques n shit...so well def be hittin that up ove the summer woo...when we drove by those houses that have horses i decided i want a horse...but then i relized i dnt deserve on cuz i dnt horse back ride or anything (not like my #1 horseback rider lauren hahaha) anyway id feel bad haveing a horse n just keeping it in a barn or sumthin and not riding it...o welll maybe ill make my kids horseback ride....YEAH thats a good idea im excited.
i hope all that spring break shit works out its gonna be sick if it does. I say cancun but w/e im down for anything thats warm and has plenty of bars lol.
alrite im rambling on....catch ya lata homies
<3, jess
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Alrite im really mad cuz i just typed one of these entries n then i xed out...im such a dumb ass lol
I got back from Myrtle Beach today...it was great me n jenn had a really good time. We got tan [kinda lol]. WE totalllly pimped it up lol....riiiiite....thats alrite they are all hicks and rednecks n perverts...yeahh lol. Its so weird how much i could hate this place while im home but it makes me so happy to see the signs for commack on the LIE on my way home from the airport...as much as i hate this place...its home...
Tonite i chilled with quite possibly three of my most favorite people in the world...jenn adena n cait OF COURSE...we had a great time lol we watched the miss USA pageant...."poor Oakkkyyy" lol shes just so dumb. me and cait practiced our interpretive dance to california....we gotta practice a lil more i feel like haha. i love those grls lol they make me laugh so much! Then me and jenn n adena had one of our girl talks...it was really nice to have one of those...havent had one in a while. Its weird cuz even though we are all in such different situations...for some reason...we have alot of the same type of decisions to make and situations to deal with...crazyyy shittt lol...whatever u girls do with any of the shit we talked about...u no i got ur back n will love u no matter what!
Ive been thinking so much lately about shit that i guess is so pointless to even think about because all it does is make me so confused and depressed...I just feel so lost and im putting off all these decisions that im gonna eventually have to make and i think by not confronting them and getting them out n shit im making it harder for myself later. I have a bad feeling about alot of shit thats coming up. I dunno i guess its just me being me and having that pessimistic attitude. I try really hard to think realistically but thats so hard when your heart will do anything and make any sacrifice for the *one* person. My heart is telling me to hold on becase these feeling and emotions towards that person is not gonna go away anytime soon and one day it will be easy and everything will make sense and all this shit that we are going through and putting ourselves through will be worth it and things will jsut be...normal. One day i feel like we will finally realize that all of this was just a huge test and made us so much stronger and made everything so much better because we realize how special the time we have together is...no matter how short that time is. But will that really happen...who knows...i hope so...but i really dont know. I want to believe what my heart is telling me so badly...but im scared to...im scared of reality hitting really hard so i try to talk myself down and think the worst so that it wont seem like i was an asshole and really thought something almost impossible would ever work and i "wont" get hurt. i dont even think im making sense anymore sorry about all this self pitty shit u all hate reading so much...
<3, jess
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vacation has officially started...woo...tomorrow im leavin for myrtle beach with jenn...gonna be so much funn and hopefully well get a lil tan...but knowing us...we wont lol...Im so excited to get outta here...lately things have been so confusing...im pretty sure i worked it all out tho...yay! before i went to bed last nite i was just laying around thinking about shit...and wats goin on in my life and whats going to be going on in the next couple of months and i feel like everything is gonna happen so fast cuz i have so much stuff to look forward to :) its gonna be good...cuz when things finally calm down for me school is gonna be over...woo summer! I feel like lately i dnt think about things, like really give them good and long thought before i commit or just talk about them...i dont even no what i want anymore im just goin along for the ride i guess...whatever happens happens....
I went out to dinner with stefanie last nite...we talked about alot of shit...about how its so fucked up that at least one person in our school has died since ive beein in high school and how two of them were in my grade...its so sad...no one should die this young...it makes me so mad cuz i feel like i am such a asshole to have ever thought about how much i didnt want to live anymore and to hate waking up in the morning and then these kids actually are gone..forever and all but one had no control over that...why would i want to end something im so lucky to have...god im glad i snapped out of that phase...phew.
then i chilled with Cait n Katie...go0o0od times..."uhh okk bye" dam i really didnt think u guys heard that lol...BUSTEDD...hahaha...cait we r def doing interpretive danicing in the senior show...well be the main act...god we r sooo good hahaha
alrite im off...if i dont talk to any of you before i leave tomorrow...i love you and will miss you...have a good vacation! xoxo
<3, jess
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today had to be the best day ive had in a whiiiilllee....first off mr thies is gone and me and that man have hated eachother for a while now so him being gone makes the rest of the school year soooo much better...thennn it was the last day of school b4 vacation woooo cant wait to go away with my woopa...and thennnn my brother came home n hes just a cool kid lol....and then it gets EVEN better...my parents are letting doug come visit me and i thnk hes coming for my birthday wooo :)...o yeah n my mom forgot about my drs appointment which was a huge plus...and as if it cant get any better...im goin to get sum quiznos tonite with some of my favorite people! yeyy!!!
<3, jess
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Im in a bad mood...i dnt no y tho. i think its from the lack of sleep. the weather is so shitty i think it put everyone in a shitty mood today. ive been having reallly weird dreams lately..i come really close to dieing in all of them but in all different ways...last nite...i hung myself but cut the rope rite before i was about to die...the other nite i was drowning under like a sheet of ice but all of a sudden i got the strength to break the ice...its really weird n scary...i dnt no wat they mean but if u r good at analyzing dreams then let me know cuz im freaked out. im excited to go away on monday...i def need a change of scenery im sick of this place. i think everyone is sick of this place. my brother comes home tomorrow...thats cool...i missed him and things are just more exciting around here when hes home. i have nothing else to write...another pointless entry...sry
<3, jess
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Just got home from the fashion show...everyone looked so pretty in their dresses...yeah and everyone was talkin about junior banquet and how me n jenn dnt have dates yet...cuz we r THAT cool...thats depressing lol but we r woking on it...kinda. I cant decide if this week is going fast or not im just so excited for vacation :) its gonna be great w/ my woopa hehe. Me n jenn looked through like all the pictures i have on my computer...some crazy timesss haha. She liked other pics better then the one i have up here so ill change that as soon as i feel like it. There were some good pics there especially all the ones of me n doug :)...
today i realized how much people can change its ridiculous. I mean one day u are best friends with someone...BEST friends....and the next she seems to find better friends. And then u find out things and u dnt no if its that the person has changed sooo much or if you are finding out that all the rumors u used to deny and stick up for her about were true and she mite really be all those things people say about her...crazy man...all i gotta say is its sad when u see ur supposed best friend out side of school and they dnt even say hi...says alot about how strong ur friendship really was i guess
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